Nucksy's Daily Teleincision

Well, I have been pretty busy since the last time I posted a blog entry. An update on my grandmother: She is doing many times better than she was when we took her to the hospital on Sunday. It looks like she will even be coming home on Tuesday or Wednesday. Thanks to all that have been praying for her. I told you that he listens!!!! Please continue as she will have some rehab once she gets out. She is anxious to return home so that she can catch up on her Walker, Texas Ranger rereuns!!! =) I have been spending a lot of time at the hospital and giving my Dad a shoulder to lean on. My aunt came in from N orth Carolina for a couple of days to check on my grandmother. I also defrosted the freezer and organized the food closets. They were out of control. I threw some things out in the garbage that may smell worse than anything I have smelled in my life. Now to two movies that I caught this week......The first is "The Break-Up" starring Vince Vaughn and Jennifer Aniston...

The last 24 hours have been pretty eventful. It has been an eventful past 10 days or so, so why should today be any different. My grandmother, or Granny Nuckolls as I call her, is in the hospital. My Dad had to call an ambulance last night because she had fallen about 12 times in the last several days. She suffers from COPD in her lungs and also from cirrhosis of the liver. That weakens her immune system along with the fact that she is 82 years old. Well, after an all day odyssey at Methodist North, here is the picture as it stands. She has what they think is pneumonia, a possible blod clot in her lung, and weakened kidneys due to dehydration. Please pray for our family. It works, trust me. He listens! I think that she will pull out of this, but this is the sickest that she has been. This coupled with other recent events has put a strain on me and my Dad. I cried some last night because I was afraid that we were going to lose her. We are going back tomorrow to sit with her. ...

Well, yesterday was a good day for me. I met my friend Mitch at Hooter's for lunch. Doesn't sound like much does it? Well, it is a big deal. He is like a brother to me, and in January I made a rude remark to his wife. Yeah, you guessed it, I was drunk. It was Jagermeister that night. 15 shots in about an hour!! Stupid! Anyway, we have not spoken much less seen each other since then. I did not know what to expect when I got there and I was nervous to say the least. When I got there, it was as if time had never passed. Also, my other friend Mike was having to be a go-between during this time. I know that this will be a relief to him. On an aside, Hooter's has a really good steak sandwich. That is what I had along with sweet tea. I explained about my job and everything that had happened the week before and that I would no longer be drinking. Well, we are friends again. I have to say that I am very happy especially with all that has been going on lately. I do not think...

Well, my credit score is actually into the fair range at 632!!! I have decided to take a divorce recovery class soon and start going to therapy. I should have been doing that as soon as I was divorced 2 1/2 years ago, but sometimes I am just to blind to see how bad things are. My Dad thinks that I should start going to AA but I am convinced that this incident is enough to keep me from drinking. We shall see. I believe in myself and that is the important thing.

Well, I have had a couple of days to reflect and collect more information about the events of June 3rd at the Memphis Zoo. The picture gets uglier as I hear more and more of it. I met up with one of my ex-coworkers yesterday to return my shirts and badge and he told me some of what happened. He said to me, ".....You are a scary drunk...." Apparently in all of my drunken haze, I sucker punched a salesperson's husband. I never even met the guy. He did not do anything to me, he was just there at the wrong time. Luckily, he was not hurt and is not going to press charges against me. He just wondered what the hell I was doing. Also, the zoo bike patrol were chasing after me but did not catch up to me. I vaguely remember someone yelling at me to come back but I kept on going. More to come........ Nucksy

Well, the fallout from Saturday's company outing at the zoo continues.......Today I lost my job. Several people complained that I was touching them in inappropriate ways. I honestly do not remember much of what happened that night but promise myself that I will never drink again.....ever. It looks so cool on the commercials, but they should show you what really happens. I do not consider myself an alcoholic but found this on the net and I think it pertains to me..... It's possible to have a problem with alcohol, but not display all the characteristics of alcoholism. This is known as "alcohol abuse," which means you engage in excessive drinking that results in health or social problems, but you aren't dependent on alcohol and haven't fully lost control over the use of alcohol. Well, that is all for now. I will write more later. I was doing so well. Over a year at this job and no problems. Well, everything happens for a reason and this was to show me that drink...

On Saturday night I did something really stupid which I will not write about at the moment. Let me just say that it involved drinking and it is the end of my drinking days. I obviously have a problem with controlling myself when drinking and I do not know when to stop when I start. I am just glad that I am OK. I am about to turn 31 and this has just really shaken me up and gotten me to look at myself and what I am doing with my life. I took 2 days off of work to clear my head. I will write more in the next couple of days about what happened.